July 25, 2010

A week & a few days later I'm back :)....4 those who cared lol & if u didn't, screw u 2 :-p...jus kidding lol...I thought doing weekly updates was better than daily..I WAS FUCKN WRONG...I must of 4got I have the worst memory in the whole damn world...so I'm going 2 to update u the best way I can ok, which is daily...the only thing I remember eating on the Friday I stopped blogging was a burger packed with onions because I was going 2 the movies that nite & I didn't want 2 get hungry & force myself 2 buy some nachos or stop @ a fast food joint....that Friday felt like hell...the person I was with wanted 2 go 2 Starbucks, Rubios, & drink!...& I jus sat there lookn like a complete idiot...they kept sayn they weren't going 2 go...but I kno if it was the other way around I would've have been pissed...I remember we had 2 wait a good hr 4 the movie...I caught myself having 2 pull my hands from between my thighs...I kno I caught a few ppl giving me the corner eye....but I didn't care..they dk what I've been thru dammit lol...I can't believe I can't enjoy a nite without those things...smh...I should b ashamed of myself...the rest of the week I stayed in the crib...I went Whole Food again on Sunday (not 2day) & got me some good ass steaks...& stocked up on some more food....can't remember wtf I cooked...but whatever it was I'm sure I took a pic...& if I don't have a pic it was a repeat of the other foods...I was eating Organic cereal until I looked @ the calories & I canned that shit & traded it in 4 Cheerios.....my workouts have been on fitness TV with Jillian Micheal & still running on the track...I have 2 admit I dropped the ball this week & missed 2 workouts (I will make up this week)...I still have a chance 2 get 1 n 2nite...but I don't see that shit happening @ all...but wtf knows...I would jus like 2 say I'm very proud of myself 4 fighting these cravings!!....it's been very very fuckn hard..no1 really knows...fast food is like my crack...I've been going 2 my fav fast food spots 4 my brother & son gettn them food, jus smelln the aroma & not eatn 1 damn fry...or gettn a burger...ANYTHING...I took mark 2 7 Eleven 1 day & his slurpee went over the top...so I figure I jus lick the top part off 2 clean it off...& I remembered I'm not 2 suppose 2 have sweets, I spit it out so fast that it didn't even touch the back of my throat..the ppl n the store thought something was wrong with the flavor ahahaha...Mark even said "mami it nasty??"....but I'm gettn better & better...I think so at least...Monday will be week 2 4 me...raise the roof...*only I would b raising the roof about not gettn dick lol*...but in any event...I have lost 7lbs..I'm going for 25lbs...doesn't sound plausible right...but if I can get to 15lb I'd be happy also....so I'll def blog y'all asses 2morrow, the day after that & so on til I'm a skinny broad :)....I don't have my cam 2 post my food pics 2day...they'll b up soon..adiós muchachos